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Oh, 2013. You were fun.

I remember this exact day last year so well. I was so sad. Devastated, really. I learned that month three of trying for a (Quinn) was unsuccessful. I took myself shopping to drown my sorrows. I wasn’t sure whether to be sad, mad, or take myself to a high risk OB – certain that I was now infertile. I was a miserable mix of all three of those emotions. I hated 2013 already.

But it’s okay! It turned out pretty well! I just put that sweet baby girl we tried so hard for to bed – and I’m fairly certain she will be my midnight kiss in a few hours. It sure would have been handy to see into the future that day. To calm myself down, and get a grip.

2013 was a ride. Starting the year trying so hard for a baby… then landing pregnant and spending almost the rest of the entire year with Quinn in my belly. That’ll take up a year, let me tell you. In the mix, however, we also took a fun family vacation. My big girl turned two, and my big boy turned one. Kyle studied… a lot. The year just seemed to revolve around two days… October 31, and November 1. So much anticipation for those dates. And we made it. And we have glided through the holiday season with two little girls. And now we forge ahead.

I’m actually very excited for a new year. Sure, tomorrow will be almost identical to today – but there is something very exciting about the calendar’s all flipping over. Starting new. Fresh. Anything can happen kind of feeling.

I am 98% certain there will be no babies in my belly this year. (I must leave 2% as room for error). If everything goes the way we are so desperately praying it will… Kyle will not study in 2014 – that hasn’t happened since 2007! The two of us will celebrate four happy and filled years. My big girl will turn 3, my big boy will turn two, and my little girl will turn 1. What?! Did that freak any of you out? A three year old?! Eeek. And a one year old! Man, I loved the one year old age. I will meet Emma Kathryn, perfect little Asian niece number 3. We will go to the beach! A little someone will start rolling. Then sitting. Then crawling. Then standing. Then walking. She will get teeth. And words. And personality.

And those are just the things I know. The unknowns that await us in 2014 are scary maybe, but exciting absolutely. This year is setting up to be a fun one, filled with many blessings. I’m happy to have my guy by my side for a 9th New Year. To have my girls tucked safe and sound in their beds. And even my pup snoring in his cage. I’m thankful for another year and am excited to put a dent in it!

Happy New Year, friends!

Now, if you’ll excuse me, I’m going to bed. 2014 will start whether I watch the ball drop or not… so I choose not.

Goodnight. 🙂


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10 Tiny Tidbits.

Turns out – I have no time to blog. Who knew something so little could cause such a ruckus. Even when I do have time, I really just enjoy sitting in silence and staring at nothing.

Two kids is a whole new ballgame, my friends.

So here’s how today’s blog will go. I have ten little things to tell you. They are:

10: I took Quinn to get weighed a few days ago for her one month birthday. She weighs 11lbs 5oz. That’s a three pound gain and shot her to the 90% in weight. I also came home and looked at Leah’s baby book to confirm my suspicions… Quinn is bigger. One full pound heavier than Leah was at one month. Grow, baby, grow. Glad I was ready to feed a baby, cause my baby was ready to eat.

9: Leah calls Quinn “my friend baby” and it’s the most precious thing I’ve ever heard. This child screams and takes my time and is very needy – yet Leah already thinks they’re best friends. Sweet.

8: Leah fed Duncan a spoonful of shortening yesterday.

7: In the past week I have done laundry, vacuumed, raked leaves, and baked cookies all while wearing Quinn. I feel very much like those tribal women you see on National Geographic. However, I’m thankful that my duties are much easier.

6: Our beach vacation 2014 is set in stone. We are taking both sets of grandparents. If that’s not the most genius thing we’ve ever done – this ensures we won’t have to see either of our children 🙂

5: My sister is having another BABY GIRL. And this Aunt Mimi could not be more excited. I officially only want girls. I love ’em.

4: Quinn is a smiling fool these days. Makes my heart so happy. Cue parents acting like idiots to see a mouth full of gums.

3: I have come to the realization that when people say, “babies are miracles” they don’t mean the actual babies. Babies are work. The miracle is that people decide to keep making them. Even when I’ve had a hard day I can still imagine little Proebsting’s 3 and 4. What kind of sick, twisted thought process is that?! I’ve never wanted to ring a little neck (ever so gently) and smother with kisses at the same time as much as I do every single day around here.

2: This little baby we have can scream. Do you remember when I said I thought Quinn would be “intense.” She just seemed that way in my belly. Well. She has not disappointed. When she is mad – she is mad. I’ve never heard a little body produce such a sound as this child can. It’s like my good friend, Kyle says, “we will have another when enough time has passed that we forget this part of it all.” Truth.

1: I miss being pregnant. Every single day. Already. Eeek! That’s not to say I want another baby right now (remember, the screaming) – but I miss my bump. And the fact that babies are much quieter on the inside than the outside.

And a bonus picture:


I debated posting it but couldn’t help myself. Love her.

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